Firstly I will write about my final tests, that were kinda easy, so I think I'll pass them. Soon Studies will start, another chapter in my life, unfortunately, in my lonely life..
This happened. My half year relationship, my first relationship has finished. As a romantic it is a very big shock for me. I'm thinking about doing something unusual.. piercing or getting fucking drunk.. This 'ending' was so ugly.. Damn ugly! That I'd never believe that person I love..d could be that cruel to me.
It all started long time ago, when we had problems with our characters, me as a romantic and him as a realist, damn realist, and scared of love. But there were worse times, and better times, and always it made us stronger. But love in such distance.. 246 km.. I was seeing him once for 3-5 weeks.. 2 weeks ago I saw him last time in his city. While i was there I found a man in his internet communicator. Not a normal man, but a closer and closer in every week. And what more interesting, a man living in his hometown he was in once for 2 weeks (more often then seeing me). This man is 29 y.o. he has his own work etc. and the most important is that he lives next to him. They were chatting since april! And what they were talking about wasn't saint. It was obvoius that my .. love wanted to meet him, and maybe in future.. to be with him! I asked my ex about that person next day. he was shocked that I checked his archive.. I know I made a mistake but I couldn't resist, cuz something was in the air..
The next day was shitty.. Night was ok, it seemed he forgiven me (!). And what about me? What about calling me romantic sissy in archive! He said it wasn't about me.. but.. I just don't believe that.
Next day was ok, but our goodbye was so quick.. in bus.. I thought he was going to go out with me, but he stayed inside, and I only said 'bye'... damn.. it was so simple!
Everything was ok, he has a session on studies, important one, so I decided not to interrupt him. I only wrote 1-2 sentences per day like 'hi, I hope everything's fine, good luck in studying' etc. He answered me when I was sleeping, and I answered him when he was sleeping and so on..
I tried to call him few days ago, but he wasn't responding, I thought that his mobile phone might be broken again, so I called his roommate yesterday. She said that he is in home, and gave him phone and.. he disconnected it. Then I called again thinking he might had pushed the wrong button, cuz he's tierd or something, his roommate answered the phone and said 'I don't know what's with you two, I don't want to be involved, you should talk to him by yourself' DANG! I.. Was.. Shocked like hell! Asking myself.. WTF is going on?! I asked her 'WTF?' and she said that she doesn't know. So I said to myself OK. That's it!
I went home, turned on internet and checked his communicator once again, and what did I found??? THAT GUY wrote him 'where is my PUPPY? I miss you too, and I like you very much too! And not only from last sunday or last week! I'll catch ya later, kiss!'
And that was....... so...... disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!! How could he! after all he said! After talking 'I will wait for you always, I will take you for holiday' etc!! DAMN!
He said that guy doesn't mean to him anything a WEEK AGO! And probably in the same time he was setting a meeting with him, damn....
That's what recently happenes in my life.. I had many dreams and plans and now all went burning in hell!
Life is fucked up people!
When I think about my past..
Anyway! Since march 2007 I'm a 'karaoke DJ' 
I think I made some progress in singing 
